Chapter 5.—Why the Soul is Enjoined to Know Itself.
Whence Come the Errors of the Mind Concerning Its Own
Substance.
7. Why therefore is it enjoined
upon it, that it should know itself? I suppose, in order that, it
may consider itself, and live according to its own nature; that is,
seek to be regulated according to its own nature,
viz
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under Him to whom it ought to be subject, and above those things to
which it is to be preferred; under Him by whom it ought to be
ruled, above those things which it ought to rule. For it does many
things through vicious desire, as though in forgetfulness of
itself. For it sees some things intrinsically excellent, in that
more excellent nature which is God: and whereas it ought to remain
steadfast that it may enjoy them, it is turned away from Him, by
wishing to appropriate those things to itself, and not to be like
to Him by His gift, but to be what He is by its own, and it begins
to move and slip gradually down into less and less, which it thinks
to be more and more; for it is neither sufficient for itself, nor
is anything at all sufficient for it, if it withdraw from Him who
is alone sufficient: and so through want and distress it becomes
too intent upon its own actions and upon the unquiet delights which
it obtains through them: and thus, by the desire of acquiring
knowledge from those things that are without, the nature of which
it knows and loves, and which it feels can be lost unless held fast
with anxious care, it loses its security, and thinks of itself so
much the less, in proportion as it feels the more secure that it
cannot lose itself. So, whereas it is one thing not to know
oneself, and another not to think of oneself (for we do not say of
the man that is skilled in much learning, that he is ignorant of
grammar, when he is only not thinking of it, because he is thinking
at the time of the art of medicine);—whereas, then, I say it is
one thing not to know oneself, and another not to think of oneself,
such is the strength of love, that the mind draws in with itself
those things which it has long thought of with love, and has grown
into them by the close adherence of diligent study, even when it
returns in some way to think of itself. And because these things
are corporeal which it loved externally through the carnal senses;
and because it has become entangled with them by a kind of daily
familiarity, and yet cannot carry those corporeal things themselves
with itself internally as it were into the region of incorporeal
nature; therefore it combines certain images of them, and thrusts
them thus made from itself into itself. For it gives to the forming
of them somewhat of its own substance, yet preserves the while
something by which it may judge freely of the species of those
images; and this something is more properly the mind, that is, the
rational understanding, which is preserved that it may judge. For
we see that we have those parts of the soul which are informed by
the likenesses of corporeal things, in common also with
beasts.