You write seldom, and your
letters are short, either because you shrink from writing or from
avoiding the satiety that comes from excess; or perhaps to train
yourself to curt speech. I, indeed, am never satisfied and
however abundant be your communication, it is less than my desire,
because I wish to know every detail about you. How are you as to
health? How as to ascetic discipline? Do you persevere in
your original purpose? Or have you formed some new plan, changing
your mind according to circumstances? Had you remained the same,
I should not have wanted a great number of letters. I should have
been quite satisfied with “I am quite well and I hope you are
quite well.” But I hear what I am ashamed to say, that you
have deserted the ranks of your blessed forefathers, and deserted to
your paternal grandfather, and are anxious to be rather a Brettanius
than a Firminius. I am very anxious to hear about this, and to
learn the reasons which have induced you to take to this kind of
life. You have yourself been silent; ashamed, I suppose, of your
intentions, and therefore I must implore you not to entertain any
project, which can be associated with shame. If any such idea has
entered into your mind, put it from you, come to yourself again, bid a
long farewell to soldiering and arms and the toils of the camp.
Return home thinking it, as your forefathers thought before you, quite
enough for ease of life and all possible distinction to hold a high
place in your city. This, I am sure, you will be able to achieve
without difficulty, when I consider your natural gifts and the small
number of your rivals. If, then, this was not your original
intention, or if after forming it you have rejected it, let me know at
once. If, on the other hand, which God forbid, you remain in the
same mind, let the trouble come self announced. I do not want a
letter.