1. I have been
defeated, and own my defeat. I subjected myself to the Lord,
and prayed unto
Him. Ps. xxxvii. 7 (LXX). Let the most blessed David supply my
exordium, or rather let Him Who spoke in David, and even now yet speaks
through him. For indeed the very best order of beginning every
speech and action, is to begin from God, Begin from
God. Possibly an adaptation of the exordium of Theocr. Idyll,
xvii. 1. ἐκ Διὸς
ἀρχώμεσθα,
καὶ ἐις Δία
λήγετε,
μοῖσαι. “Let Zeus
inspire our opening strain, And Muses, end your song in Zeus
again.” Cf. Demosth. Epist. 1.
and to end in God. As to the cause, either of my original revolt
and cowardice, in which I got me away far off, and remained Ps. lv. 7. away from you for a time, which perhaps
seemed long to those who missed me; or of the present gentleness and
change of mind, in which I have given myself up again to you, men may
think and speak in different ways, according to the hatred or love they
bear me, on the one side refusing to acquit me of the charges alleged,
on the other giving me a hearty welcome. For nothing is so
pleasant to men as talking of other people’s business, especially
under the influence of affection or hatred, which often almost entirely
blinds us to the truth. I will, however, myself, unabashed, set
forth the truth, and arbitrate with justice between the two parties,
which accuse or gallantly defend us, by, on the one side, accusing
myself, on the other, undertaking my own defence.