I address you by the very
honourable and reverend brother Petrus, beseeching you now and ever to
pray for me, that I may be changed from ways dangerous and to be
shunned, and may be made one day worthy of the name of Christ.
Though I say nothing, you will converse together about my affairs, and
he will give you an exact account of what has taken place. But
you admit without due examination, the vile suspicions against me which
will probably be raised by men who have insulted me, in violation of
the fear of God and the regard of men. I am ashamed to tell you
what treatment I have received from the illustrious Basilius, whom I
had accepted at the hands of your reverence as a protection for my
life. But, when you have heard what our brother has to say, you
will know every detail. I do not thus speak to avenge myself upon
him, for I pray that it may not be put to his account by the Lord, but
in order that your affection to me may remain firm, and because I am
afraid lest it be shaken by the monstrous slanders which these men are
pretty sure to make up in defence of their fall. Whatever be the
charges they adduce, I hope your intelligence will put these enquiries
to them. Have they formally accused me? Have they sought
for any correction of the error which they bring against me? Have
they made their grievance against me plain? As matters are, by
their ignoble flight they have made it evident that under the
cheerfulness of their countenance, and their counterfeit expressions of
affection, they are all the while hiding in their heart an immense
depth of guile and of gall. In all this, whether I narrate it or
not, your intelligence knows perfectly well what sorrow they have
caused me, and what laughter to those who, always expressing their
abomination for the pious life in this wretched city, affirm that the
pretence of virtue is practised as a mere trick to get credit, a mere
assumption to deceive. So in these days no mode of life is now so
suspected of vice by people here as the profession of asceticism.
Your intelligence will consider what is the best cure for all this.