Chapter VI.
How those who think that they are without sin are like
purblind people.
As
if we were to suppose
that two men, one of whom was clear sighted with perfect vision, and
the other, one whose eyesight was obscured by dimness of vision, had
together entered some great house that was filled with a quantity of
bundles, instruments, and vessels, would not he, whose dullness of
vision prevented his seeing everything, assert that there was nothing
there but chests, beds, benches, tables, and whatever met the fingers
of one who felt them rather than the eyes of one who saw them, while on
the other hand would not the other, who searched out what was hidden
with clear and bright eyes, declare that there were there many most
minute articles, and what could scarcely be counted; which if they were
ever gathered up into a single pile, would by their number equal or
perhaps exceed the size of those few things which the other had felt.
So then even saints, and, if we may so say, men who
see
, whose
aim is the utmost perfection, cleverly detect in themselves even those
things which the gaze of our mind being as it were darkened cannot see,
and condemn them very severely, to such an extent that those who have
not, as it seems to our carelessness, dimmed the whiteness of their
body, which is as it were like snow, with even the slightest spot of
sin, seem to themselves to be covered with many stains, if, I will not
say any evil or vain thoughts creep into the doors of their mind, but
even the recollection of a Psalm which has to be said takes off the
attention of the kneeler at the time for prayer. For if, say they, when
we ask some great man, I will not say for our life and salvation, but
for some advantage and profit, we fasten all our attention of mind and
body upon him, and hang with trembling expectation on his nod, with no
slight dread lest haply some foolish or unsuitable word may turn aside
the pity of our hearer, and then too, when we are standing in the forum
or in the courts of earthly judges, with our opponent standing over
against us, if in the midst of the prosecution and trial any coughing,
or spitting, or laughing, or yawning, or sleep overtakes us, with what
malice will our ever watchful opponent stir up the severity of the
judge to our damage: how much more, when we entreat Him who knows all
secrets, should we, by reason of our imminent danger of everlasting
death, plead with earnest and anxious prayer for the kindness of the
judge, especially as on the other side there stands one who is both our
crafty seducer and our accuser! And not without reason will he be bound
by no light sin, but by a grievous fault of wickedness, who, when he
pours forth his prayer to God, departs at once from His sight as if
from the eyes of one who neither sees nor hears, and follows the vanity
of wicked thoughts. But they who cover the eyes of their heart with a
thick veil of their sins, and as the Saviour says, “Seeing see
not and hearing hear not nor understand,”
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hardly regard in the inmost recesses of their breast even those faults
which are great and deadly, and cannot with clear eyes look at any
deceitful thoughts, nor even those vague and secret desires which
strike the mind with slight and subtle suggestions, nor the captivities
of their soul, but always wandering among impure thoughts they know not
how to be sorry when they are distracted from that meditation which is
so special, nor can they grieve that they have lost anything as while
they lay open their mind to the entrance of any thought as they please,
they have nothing set before them to hold to as the main thing or to
desire in every way.
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S.
Matt. xiii. 13
.