Chapter X.
Of those who while still imperfect retire into the
desert.
But
some are sometimes so
tantalized by the silence of the desert lasting all through the day
that they altogether dread intercourse with men, and, when they have
even for a little while broken through their habit of retirement owing
to the accident of a visit from some of the brethren, boil over with
marked vexation of mind, and show clear signs of annoyance. And this
especially happens in the case of those who have betaken themselves to
the solitary life without a well-matured purpose and without being
thoroughly trained in the Cœnobium, as these men are always
imperfect and easily upset, and incline to one side or the other, as
the gales of trouble may drive them. For as they boil over impatiently
at intercourse or conversation with the brethren, so while they are
living in solitude they cannot stand the vastness of that silence which
they themselves have courted, inasmuch as they themselves do not even
know the reason why solitude ought to be wanted and sought for, but
imagine that the value and the main part of this life consist in this;
viz., in avoiding intercourse with the brethren and simply shunning and
loathing the sight of a man.