28. One of the wonders which concern him was
that he suffered from sickness and bodily pain. But what wonder
is it for even holy men to be distressed, either for the cleansing of
their clay, slight though it may be, or a touchstone of virtue and test
of philosophy, or for the education of the weaker, who learn from their
example to be patient instead of giving way under their
misfortunes? Well, he was sick, the time was the holy and
illustrious Easter, the queen of days, the brilliant night which
dissipates the darkness of sin, upon which with abundant light we keep
the feast of our salvation, putting ourselves to death along with the
Light once put to death for us, and rising again with Him who
rose. This was the time of his sufferings. Of what kind
they were, I will briefly explain. His whole frame was on fire
with an excessive, burning fever, his strength had failed, he was
unable to take food, his sleep had departed from him, he was in the
greatest distress, and agitated by palpitations. Within his
mouth, the palate and the whole of the upper surface was so completely
and painfully ulcerated, that it was difficult and dangerous to swallow
even water. The skill of physicians, the prayers, most earnest
though they were, of his friends, and every possible attention were
alike of no avail. He himself in this desperate condition, while
his breath came short and fast, had no perception of present things,
but was entirely absent, immersed in the objects he had long desired,
now made ready for him. We were in the temple, mingling
supplications with the sacred rites, for, in despair of all others, we
had betaken ourselves to the Great Physician, to the power of that
night, and to the last succour, with the intention, shall I say, of
keeping a feast, or of mourning; of holding festival, or paying funeral
honours to one no longer here? O those tears! which were shed at
that time by all the people. O voices, and cries, and hymns
blended with the psalmody! From the temple they sought the
priest, from the sacred rite the celebrant, from God their worthy
ruler, with my Miriam My
Miriam. S. Nonna. to lead them and
strike the timbrel Exod. xv. 20. not of triumph, but
of supplication; learning then for the first time to be put to shame by
misfortune, and calling at once upon the people and upon God; upon the
former to sympathize with her distress, and to be lavish of their
tears, upon the latter, to listen to her petitions, as, with the
inventive genius of suffering, she rehearsed before Him all His wonders
of old time.