Chapter XXX.
How those are to be admonished who abstain not from the
sins which they bewail, and those who, abstaining from them, bewail
them not.
(
Admonition
31.) Differently to be
admonished are those who lament their transgressions, and yet forsake
them not, and those who forsake them, and yet lament them not.
For those who lament their transgressions and yet forsake them not are
to be admonished to learn to consider anxiously that they cleanse
themselves in vain by their weeping, if they wickedly defile themselves
in their living,
seeing that the end for which they wash
themselves in tears is that, when clean, they may return to
filth. For hence it is written,
The dog is returned to his own
vomit again, and the sow that was washed to her wallowing in the
mire
(
2 Pet. ii.
22
). For the dog,
when he vomits, certainly casts forth the food which weighed upon his
stomach; but, when he returns to his vomit, he is again loaded with
what he had been relieved from. And they who mourn their
transgressions certainly cast forth by confession the wickedness with
which they have been evilly satiated, and which oppressed the inmost
parts of their soul; and yet, in recurring to it after confession, they
take it in again. But the sow, by wallowing in the mire when
washed, is made more filthy. And one who mourns past
transgressions, yet forsakes them not, subjects himself to the penalty
of more grievous sin, since he both despises the very pardon which he
might have won by his weeping, and as it were rolls himself in miry
water; because in withholding purity of life from his weeping he makes
even his very tears filthy before the eyes of
God
. Hence again it is written,
Repeat not a word
in thy prayer
(
Ecclus. vii.
14
). For to
repeat a word in prayer is, after bewailing, to commit what again
requires bewailing. Hence it is said through Isaiah,
Wash you,
be ye clean
(
Isai.
i. 16
). For he
neglects being clean after washing, whosoever after tears keeps not
innocency of life. And they therefore are washed, but are in no
wise clean, who cease not to bewail the things they have committed, but
commit again things to be bewailed. Hence through a certain wise
man it is said,
He that is baptized from the touch of a dead body
and toucheth it again, what availeth his washing
(
Ecclus. xxxiv. 30
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)? For indeed
he is baptized from the touch of a dead body who is cleansed from sin
by weeping: but he touches a dead body after his baptism, who
after tears repeats his sin.
Those who bewail transgressions, yet forsake them
not, are to be admonished to acknowledge themselves to be before the
eyes of the strict judge like those who, when they come before the face
of certain men, fawn upon them with great submission, but, when they
depart, atrociously bring upon them all the enmity and hurt they
can. For what is weeping for sin but exhibiting the humility of
one’s devotion to
God
? And what is
doing wickedly after weeping but putting in practice arrogant enmity
against Him to whom entreaty has been made? This James attests,
who says,
Whosoever will be a friend of this world becomes the enemy
of
God
(
James iv. 4
). Those who lament their
transgressions, yet forsake them not, are to be admonished to consider
anxiously that, for the most part, bad men are unprofitably drawn by
compunction to righteousness, even as, for the most part, good men are
without harm tempted to sin. Here indeed is found a wonderful
measure of inward disposition in accordance with the requirements of
desert, in that the bad, while doing something good, but still without
perfecting it, are proudly confident in the midst of the very evil
which even to the full they perpetrate; while the good, when tempted of
evil to which they in no wise consent, plant the steps of their heart
towards righteousness through humility all the more surely from their
tottering through infirmity. Thus Balaam, looking on the tents of
the righteous, said,
May my soul die the death of the righteous, and
may my last end be like theirs
(
Num. xxiii. 10
). But, when the time of
compunction had passed, he gave counsel against the life of those whom
he had requested for himself to be like even in dying: and, when
he found an occasion for the gratification of his avarice, he
straightway forgot all that he had wished for himself of
innocence. Hence it is that Paul, the teacher and preacher of the
Gentiles, says,
I see another law in my members, warring against the
law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin, which
is in my members
(
Rom. vii. 23
). He is of a truth tempted for
this very purpose, that he may be the more stedfastly confirmed in good
from the knowledge of his own infirmity. Why is it, then, that
the one is touched with compunction, and yet draws not near unto
righteousness, while the other is tempted, and yet sin defiles him not,
but for this evident reason, that neither do good things not perfected
help the bad, nor bad things not consummated condemn the good?
But, on the other hand, those who forsake their
transgressions, and yet mourn them not, are to be admonished not to
suppose the sins to be already remitted which, though they multiply
them not by action, they still cleanse away by no bewailings. For
neither has a writer, when he has ceased from writing, obliterated what
he had written by reason of his having added no more: neither has
one who offers insults made satisfaction by merely holding his peace,
it being certainly necessary for him to impugn his former words of
pride by words of subsequent humility: nor is a debtor absolved
by not increasing his debt, unless he also pays what he has
incurred. Thus also, when we offend against
God
, we by no means make satisfaction by ceasing
from iniquity, unless we also
follow up the pleasures which we have loved by lamentations set against
them. For, if no sin of deed had polluted us in this life, our
very innocence would by no means suffice for our security as long as we
live here, since many unlawful things would still assail our
heart. With what conscience, then, can he feel safe, who, having
perpetrated iniquities, is himself witness to himself that he is not
innocent?
For it is not as if
God
were fed by our torments: but He heals the diseases of our
transgressions by medicines opposed to them that we, who have departed
from Him delighted by pleasures, may return to Him embittered by tears;
and that, having fallen by running loose in unlawful things, we may
rise by restraining ourselves even in lawful ones; and that the heart
which mad joy had flooded may be burnt clean by wholesome
sadness: and that what the elation of pride had wounded may be
cured by the dejection of a humble life.
For hence it is
written, I said unto the wicked, Deal not wickedly; and to the
transgressors, lift not up the horn
(
Ps. lxxiv.
5
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). For transgressors lift up
the horn, if they in no wise humble themselves to penitence after
knowledge of their iniquity. Hence again it is said,
A bruised
and humbled heart
God
doth not despise
(
Ps. l. 19
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).
For whosoever mourns his sins yet forsakes them not bruises indeed his
heart, but scorns to humble it. But he who forsakes his sins yet
mourns them not does indeed already humble his heart, but refuses to
bruise it. Hence Paul says,
And such indeed were ye; but ye
are washed, but ye are sanctified
(
1 Cor. vi. 11
); because, in truth, amended life
sanctifies those whom the ablution of the affliction of tears cleanses
through penitence. Hence Peter, when he saw some affrighted by
consideration of their evil deeds, admonished them, saying,
Repent,
and be baptized every one of you
(
Acts ii. 38
). For, being about to speak of
baptism, he spoke first of the lamentations of penitence; that they
should first bathe themselves in the water of their own affliction, and
afterwards wash themselves in the sacrament of baptism. With what
conscience, then, can those who neglect to weep for their past misdeeds
live secure of pardon, when the chief pastor of the Church himself
believed that penitence must be added even to this Sacrament which
chiefly extinguishes sins?
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In
Engl.
Bib.
, xxxiv. 25.
1291
In
English
Bible
, lxxv. 4.
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Ibid. li. 17.