2. Self-importance, when rooted by habit in
the mind, cannot be destroyed by one man, by one single letter, or in a
short time. Unless there be some arbiter in whom all parties have
confidence, suspicions and collisions will never altogether
cease. If, indeed, the influence of Divine grace were shed upon
me, and I were given power in word and deed and spiritual gifts to
prevail with these rival parties, then this daring experiment might be
demanded of me; though, perhaps, even then, you would not advise me to
attempt this adjustment of things by myself, without the co-operation
of the bishop, Meletius of
Antioch. on whom principally
falls the care of the church. But he cannot come hither, nor can
I easily undertake a long journey while the winter lasts, or rather I
cannot anyhow, for the Armenian mountains will be soon impassable, even
to the young and vigorous, to say nothing of my continued bodily
ailments. I have no objection to write to tell him of all this;
but I have no expectation that writing will lead to anything, for I
know his cautious character, and after all written words have little
power to convince the mind. There are so many things to urge, and
to bear, and to reply to, and to object, that a letter has no soul, and
is in fact but waste paper. However, as I have said, I will
write. Only give me credit, most religious and dear brother, for
having no private feeling in the matter. Thank God. I have
no such feeling towards any one. I have not busied myself in the
investigation of the supposed or real complaints which are brought
against this or that man; so my opinion has a claim on your attention
as that of one who really cannot act from partiality or
prejudice. I only desire, through the Lord’s good will,
that all things may be done with ecclesiastical propriety.