[in this] : I know what is for my benefit. Now I begin to be a disci- ple. And let no one, of things visi- ble or invisible, envy ' me that I should attain to Jesus Christ. Let fire and the cross ; let the crowds of wild beasts ; let tearings,^ breakings, and dislocations of bones ; let cutting off of members ; let shatterings of the whole body ; and let all the dreadful ^ torments of the devil come upon me : only let me attain to Jesus Christ.