1. Truly unexpected
tidings make both ears tingle. This is my case. These
compositions against me, which are being carried about, have fallen
upon ears by this time pretty well seasoned, on account of my having
formerly received the letter, appropriate enough to my sins, but which
I should never have expected to be written by those who sent it.
Nevertheless what followed did seem to me so extraordinarily cruel as
to blot out all that had gone before. How could I fail to be
driven almost out of my senses when I read the letter addressed to the
reverend brother Dazinas, full of outrageous insults and calumnies and
of attacks against me, as though I had been convicted of much
pernicious designs against the Church? Moreover proofs were
forthwith offered of the truth of the calumnies against me, from the
document of whose authorship I am ignorant. Parts I recognise, I
own, as having been written by Apollinarius of Laodicea. These I
had purposely not even ever read, but I had heard of them from the
report of others. Other portions I found included, which I had
never either read or heard of from any one else; of the truth of this
there is a faithful witness in heaven. How then can men who shun
lies, who have learnt that love is the fulfilling of the law, who
profess to bear the burdens of the weak, have consented to bring these
calumnies against me and to condemn me out of other men’s
writings? I have often asked myself this question, but I cannot
imagine the reason, unless it be, as I have said from the beginning,
that my pain in all this is a part of the punishment which is due to my
sins.