Chapter VII.
A question how it is that it is harder work to preserve
than to originate good thoughts.
Germanus
: If only we
could keep as a lasting possession those spiritual thoughts in the same
way and with the same ease with which we generally conceive their
germs! for when they have been conceived in our hearts either through
the recollection of the Scriptures or by the memory of some spiritual
actions, or by gazing upon heavenly mysteries, they vanish all too soon
and disappear by a sort of unnoticed flight. And when our soul has
discovered some other occasions for spiritual emotions, different ones
again crowd in upon us, and those which we had grasped are scattered,
and lightly fly away so that the mind retaining no persistency, and
keeping of its own power no firm hand over holy thoughts, must be
thought, even when it does seem to retain them for a while, to have
conceived them at random and not of set purpose. For how can we think
that their rise should be ascribed to our own will, if they do not last
and remain with us? But that we may not owing to the consideration of
this question wander any further from the plan of the discourse we had
commenced, or delay any longer the explanation promised of the nature
of prayer, we will keep this for its own time, and ask to be informed
at once of the character of prayer, especially as the blessed Apostle
exhorts us at no time to cease from it, saying “Pray without
ceasing.” And so we want to be taught first of its character,
i.e., how prayer ought
always
to be offered up, and then how we
can secure this, whatever it is, and practise it without ceasing. For
that it cannot be done by any light purpose of heart both daily
experience and the explanation of four holiness show us, as you have
laid it down that the aim of a monk, and the height of all perfection
consist in the consummation of prayer.