wrench yourself once for all out of all the cords which hold you down, and transfer yourself
to the school of repentance. But if this seems to you a difficult thing, that you should be
willing to enter on the path which leads to better things, simply enter upon it, and lay hold
on eternal life. Yea, I beseech and implore you by your former reputation, by that confidence
which once was yours, let us see you once again standing on the pinnacle of virtue, and in
the same condition of perseverance as before. Spare those who are made to stumble on thy
account, those who are falling, who are becoming more indolent, who are despairing of the
way of virtue. For dejection now holds possession of the band of brethren, while pleasure
and cheerfulness prevail in the councils of the unbelieving, and of those young men who
are disposed to indolence. But if thou return again to thy former strictness of life the result
will be reversed, and all our shame will be transferred to them, while we shall enjoy much
confidence, seeing thee again crowned and proclaimed victor with more splendour than
before. For such victories bring greater renown and pleasure. For you will not only receive
the reward of your own achievements, but also of the exhortation and consolation of others,
being exhibited as a striking model, if ever any one should fall into the same condition, to
encourage him to get up and recover himself. Do not neglect such an opportunity of gain,
nor drag our souls down into Hades with sorrow, but let us breathe freely again, and shake
off the cloud of despondency which oppresses us on thy account. For now, passing by the
consideration of our own troubles, we mourn over thy calamities, but if thou art willing to
come to thy senses, and see clearly, and to join the angelic host, you will release us from this
sorrow, and will take away the greater part of sins. For that it is possible for those who have
come back again after repentance to shine with much lustre, and oftentimes more than those
who have never fallen at all, I have demonstrated from the divine writings. Thus at least
both the publicans and the harlots inherit the kingdom of Heaven, thus many of the last are
placed before the first.
17. But I will tell thee also of events which have happened in our own time, and of which
thou mayest thyself have been witness. You know probably that young Phœnician, the son
of Urbanus, who was untimely left an orphan, but possessed of much money, and many
slaves and lands. This man, having in the first place bidden complete farewell to his studies
in the schools, and having laid aside the gay clothing which he formerly wore, and all his
worldly grandeur, suddenly arraying himself in a shabby cloak, and retreating to the solitude
of the mountains, exhibited a high degree of Christian philosophy not merely in proportion
to his age, but such as any great and wonderful man might have displayed. And after this,
having been deemed worthy of initiation into the sacred mysteries, he made still greater
advances in virtue. And all were rejoicing, and glorifying God, that one nurtured in wealth,
and having illustrious ancestors, and being still a mere youth, should have suddenly trodden
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