Chapter VIII.
A question on the training in perfection by which we can
arrive at perpetual recollection of God.
Germanus
: The extent of our
bewilderment at our wondering awe at the former Conference, because of
which we came back again, increases still more. For in proportion as by
the incitements of this teaching we are fired with the desire of
perfect bliss, so do we fall back into greater despair, as we know not
how to seek or obtain training for such lofty heights. Wherefore we
entreat that you will patiently allow us (for it must perhaps be set
forth and unfolded with a good deal of talk) to explain what while
sitting in the cell we had begun to revolve in a lengthy meditation,
although we know that your holiness is not at all troubled by the
infirmities of the weak, which even for this reason should be openly
set forth, that what is out of place in them may receive correction.
Our notion then is that the perfection of any art or system of training
must begin with some simple rudiments, and grow accustomed first to
somewhat easy and tender beginnings, so that being nourished and
trained little by little by a sort of reasonable milk, it may grow up
and so by degrees and step by step mount up from the lowest depths to
the heights: and when by these means it has entered on the plainer
principles and so to speak passed the gates of the entrance of the
profession, it will consequently arrive without difficulty at the
inmost shrine and lofty heights of perfection. For how could any boy
manage to pronounce the simplest union of syllables unless he had first
carefully learnt the letters of the alphabet? Or how can any one learn
to read quickly, who is still unfit to connect together short and
simple sentences? But by what means will one who is ill instructed in
the science of grammar attain eloquence in rhetoric or the knowledge of
philosophy? Wherefore for this highest learning also, by which we are
taught even to cleave to God, I have no doubt that there are some
foundations of the system, which must first be firmly laid and
afterwards the towering heights of perfection may be placed and raised
upon them. And we have a slight idea that these are its first
principles; viz., that we should first learn by what meditations God
may be grasped and contemplated, and next that we should manage to keep
a very firm hold of this topic whatever it is which we do not doubt is
the height of all perfection. And therefore we want you to show us some
material for this recollection, by which we may conceive and ever keep
the idea of God in the mind, so that by always keeping it before our
eyes, when we find that we have dropped away from Him, we may at once
be able to recover ourselves and return thither and may succeed in
laying hold of it again without any delay from wandering around the
subject and searching for it. For it happens that when we have wandered
away from our spiritual speculations and have come back to ourselves as
if waking from
a deadly sleep, and,
being thoroughly roused, look for the subject matter, by which we may
be able to revive that spiritual recollection which has been destroyed,
we are hindered by the delay of the actual search before we find it,
and are once more drawn aside from our endeavour, and before the
spiritual insight is brought about, the purpose of heart which had been
conceived, has disappeared. And this trouble is certain to happen to us
for this reason because we do not keep something special firmly set
before our eyes like some principle to which the wandering thoughts may
be recalled after many digressions and varied excursions; and, if I may
use the expression, after long storms enter a quiet haven. And so it
comes to pass that as the mind is constantly hindered by this want of
knowledge and difficulty, and is always tossed about vaguely, and as if
intoxicated, among various matters, and cannot even retain firm hold
for any length of time of anything spiritual which has occurred to it
by chance rather than of set purpose: while, as it is always receiving
one thing after another, it does not notice either their beginning and
origin or even their end.