But for all these the mischief has proved too strong.  Perhaps another man might endure it, but, coming as it did unexpectedly, no one is so stout as to bear it.  Long troubled by it as I have been, I have never been so distressed as now at being prevented by it from meeting you and enjoying your true friendship.  I know of how much pleasure I am deprived, although last year I did touch with the tip of my finger the sweet honey of your Church.