XXII. But then, you say, is not God
merciful, and since He knows our thoughts and searches out our desires,
will He not take the desire of Baptism instead of Baptism? You
are speaking in riddles, if what you mean is that because of
God’s mercy the unenlightened is enlightened in His sight; and he
is within the kingdom of heaven who merely desires to attain to it, but
refrains from doing that which pertains to the kingdom. I will,
however, speak out boldly my opinion on these matters; and I think that
all other sensible men will range themselves on my side. Of those
who have received the gift, some were altogether alien from God and
from salvation, both addicted to all manner of sin, and desirous to be
bad; others were semivicious, and in a kind of mean state between good
and bad; others again, while they did that which was evil, yet did not
approve their own action, just as men in a fever are not pleased with
their own sickness. And others even before they were illuminated
were worthy of praise; partly by nature, and partly by the care with
which they prepared themselves for Baptism. These after their
initiation became evidently better, and less liable to fall; in the one
case with a view to procuring good, and in the other in order to
preserve it. And amongst these, those who gave in to some
evil are better than those who were altogether bad; and better still
than those who yielded a little, are those who were more zealous, and
broke up their fallow ground before Baptism; they have the advantage
over the others of having already laboured; for the font does not do
away with good deeds as it does with sins. But better even than
these are they who are also cultivating the Gift, and are polishing
themselves to the utmost possible beauty.