Letter IV.
(
a.d.
387.)
To Nebridius Augustin Sends
Greeting.
1. It is very wonderful how completely I was taken
by surprise, when, on searching to discover which of your letters
still remained unanswered, I found only one which held me as your
debtor,—that, namely, in which you request me to tell you how far
in this my leisure, which you suppose to be great, and which you
desire to share with me, I am making progress in learning to
discriminate those things in nature with which the senses are
conversant, from those about which the understanding is employed.
But I suppose it is not unknown to you, that if one becomes more
and more fully imbued with false opinions, the more fully and
intimately one exercises himself in them, the corresponding effect
is still more easily produced in the mind by contact with truth.
Nevertheless my progress, like our physical development, is so
gradual, that it is difficult to define its steps distinctly, just
as though there is a very great difference between a boy and a
young man, no one, if daily questioned from his boyhood onward,
could at any one date say that now he was no more a boy, but a
young man.
2. I would not have you, however, so to apply this
illustration as to suppose that, in the vigour of a more powerful
understanding, I have arrived as it were at the beginning of the
soul’s manhood. For I am yet but a boy, though perhaps, as we
say, a promising boy, rather than a good-for-nothing. For although
the eyes of my mind are for the most part perturbed and oppressed
by the distractions produced by blows inflicted through things
sensible, they are revived and raised up again by that brief
process of reasoning: “The mind and intelligence are superior to
the eyes and the common faculty of sight; which could not be the
case unless the things which we perceive by intelligence were more
real than the things which we perceive by the faculty of sight.”
I pray you to help me in examining whether any valid objection can
be brought against this reasoning. By it, meanwhile, I find myself
restored and refreshed; and when, after calling upon God for help,
I begin to rise
to Him,
and to those things which are in the highest sense real, I am at
times satisfied with such a grasp and enjoyment of the things which
eternally abide, that I sometimes wonder at my requiring any such
reasoning as I have above given to persuade me of the reality of
those things which in my soul are as truly present to me as I am to
myself.
Please look over your letters yourself, for I own
that you will be in this matter at greater pains than I, in order
to make sure that I am not perchance unwittingly still owing an
answer to any of them: for I can hardly believe that I have so soon
got from under the burden of debts which I used to reckon as so
numerous; albeit, at the same time, I cannot doubt that you have
had some letters from me to which I have as yet received no
reply.