Chapter I.—He Deplores the
Wickedness of His Youth.
1.
I Will
now call to
mind my past foulness, and the carnal corruptions of my soul, not
because I love them, but that I may love Thee, O my God. For love
of Thy love do I it, recalling, in the very bitterness of my
remembrance, my most vicious ways, that Thou mayest grow sweet to
me,—Thou sweetness without deception! Thou sweetness happy and
assured!—and re-collecting myself out of that my dissipation, in
which I was torn to pieces, while, turned away from Thee the One, I
lost myself among many vanities. For I even longed in my youth
formerly to be satisfied with worldly things, and I dared to grow
wild again with various and shadowy loves; my form consumed away,
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and I became
corrupt in Thine eyes, pleasing myself, and eager to please in the
eyes of men.
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Ps. xxxix. 11
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