33. Saint Pelagia Cf. Ep.
XXXVII. 38. St. Ambrose, being asked by his sister for his
opinion concerning such virgins as had committed suicide rather than
suffer themselves to be violated, would seem to say that in some cases
this was allowable. St. Augustine [de Civ. Dei, I. 19]
speaks with some hesitation on the same subject. There is some
doubt as to who this St. Pelagia mentioned below may be. St.
Chrysostom says she committed suicide by throwing herself from the
roof; see Pelagia (1) in Dict. Chr. Biog.
lived formerly at Antioch, being about fifteen years old, a sister of
virgins, and a virgin herself. She shut herself up at home at the
first sound of persecution, seeing herself surrounded by those who
would rob her of her faith and purity, in the absence of her mother and
sisters, without any defence, but all the more filled with God.
“What are we to do, unless,” says she to herself,
“thou, a captive of virginity, takest thought? I both wish
and fear to die, for I meet not death but seek it. Let us die if
we are allowed, or if they will not allow it, still let us die.
God is not offended by a remedy against evil, and faith permits the
act. In truth, if we think of the real meaning of the word, how
can what is voluntary be violence? It is rather violence to wish
to die and not to be able. And we do not fear any
difficulty. For who is there who wishes to die and is not able to
do so, when there are so many easy ways to death? For I can now
rush upon the sacrilegious altars and overthrow them, and quench with
my blood the kindled fires. I am not afraid that my right hand
may fail to deliver the blow, or that my breast may
shrink from the pain. I shall leave no
sin to my flesh. I fear not that a sword will be wanting. I
can die by my own weapons, I can die without the help of an
executioner, in my mother’s bosom.”