2. These are the reasons which have urged me to
speak, and to address myself to this contest. And at my late
appearance, long after his praises have been set forth by so many, who
have publicly and privately done him honour, let no one be
surprised. Yea, may I be pardoned by that divine soul, the object
of my constant reverence! And as, when he was amongst us, he
constantly corrected me in many points, according to the rights of a
friend and the still higher law; for I am not ashamed to say this, for
he was a standard of virtue to us all; so now, looking down upon me
from above, he will treat me with indulgence. I ask pardon too of any here
who are among his warmest admirers, if indeed anyone can be warmer than
another, and we are not all abreast in our zeal for his good
fame. For it is not contempt which has caused me to fall short of
what might have been expected of me: nor have I been so
regardless of the claims of virtue or of friendship; nor have I thought
that to praise him befitted any other more than me. No! my first
reason was, that I shrunk from this task, for I will say the truth, as
priests As priests, or,
more generally, “as those who approach our temples.”
In the E. there were lavers at the entrance to the churches for the
ablutions of intending worshippers. do, who approach
their sacred duties before being cleansed both in voice and mind.
In the second place, I remind you, though you know it well, of the
task Of the task,
i.e., of restoring the orthodox faith in Constantinople. in which I was engaged on behalf of the true
doctrine, which had been properly forced upon me, and had carried me
from home, according, as I suppose, to the will of God, and certainly
according to the judgment of our noble champion of the truth, the
breath of whose life was pious doctrine alone, such as promotes the
salvation of the whole world. As for my bodily health, I ought
not, perhaps, to dare to mention it, when my subject is a man so
doughty in his conquest of the body, even before his removal hence, and
who maintained that no powers of the soul should suffer hindrance from
this our fetter. Fetter, i.e.,
the body. So much for
my defence. I do not think I need labour it further, in speaking
of him to you who know so clearly my affairs. I must now proceed
with my eulogy, commending myself to his God, in order that my
commendations may not prove an insult to the man, and that I may not
lag far behind all others; even though we all equally fall as far short
of his due, as those who look upon the heavens or the rays of the
Sun.