5. It seemed to me to be best and least dangerous
to take a middle course between desire and fear, and to yield in part
to desire, in part to the Spirit: and that this would be the
case, if I neither altogether evaded the office, and so refused the
grace, which would be dangerous, nor yet assumed a burden beyond my
powers, for it is a heavy one. The former indeed is suited to the
person of another, the latter to another’s power, or rather to
undertake both would be madness. But piety and safety would alike
advise me to proportion the office to my power, and as is the case with
food, to accept that which is within my power and refuse what is beyond
it, for health is gained for the body, and tranquillity for the soul,
by such a course of moderation. Therefore I now consent to share
in the cares of my excellent father, like an eaglet, not quite vainly
flying close to a mighty and high soaring eagle. But hereafter I
will offer my wing to the Spirit to be borne whither, and as, He
wills: no one shall force or drag me in any direction, contrary
to His counsel. For sweet it is to inherit a father’s
toils, and this flock is more familiar than a strange and foreign one;
I would even add, more precious in the sight of God, unless the spell
of affection deceives me, and the force of habit robs me of
perception: nor is there any more useful or safer course than
that willing rulers should rule willing subjects: since it is our
practice not to lead by force, or by compulsion, but by good
will. For this would not hold together even another form of
government, since that which is held in by force is wont, when
opportunity offers, to strike for freedom: but freedom of will
more than anything else it
is, which holds together our—I will not call it rule,
but—tutorship. For the mystery of godliness 1 Tim. iii. 16. belongs to those who are willing, not to
those who are overpowered.