all this; if we were to reason with ourselves, supposing even that we were the cruelest and
harshest of men, yet upon taking a survey of the multitude of our sins, we should for very
fear and agony be unable to remember the injury done by others towards ourselves. Bear
in mind the river of fire; the envenomed worm; the fearful Judgment, where all things shall
be naked and open! Reflect, that what are now hidden things, are then to be brought to light!
But shouldest thou pardon thy neighbour all these sins which till then await their disclosure
are done away with here; and when thou shalt depart this life, thou wilt not drag after thee
any of that chain of transgressions; so that thou receivest greater things than thou givest.
For many such transgressions, indeed, we have often committed, which no other person
knoweth; and when we think, that on That Day these our sins shall lie exposed to the eyes
of all, upon the public theatre of the universe, we are in pain beyond any punishment, being
choked and strangled by our conscience. Yet this shame, great as it is; these sins, these
punishments, great as they are; there is a possibility of purging away through forgiveness
exercised toward our neighbour.
6. For indeed there is nothing equal to this virtue.1805 Wouldest thou learn the power
of this virtue? “Though Moses and Samuel stood before Me,” saith God, “my soul would
not regard them.”1806 Nevertheless, those whom Moses and Samuel were not able to snatch
away from God’s wrath, this precept when observed was able to snatch away. Hence it is,
that He continually exhorts those to whom He had spoken these things, saying, “Let none
of you revengefully imagine1807 evil against his brother in your heart,” and “let none of you
think of his neighbour’s malice.”1808 It is not said merely, forego wrath; but retain it not in
thy mind; think not of it; part with all thy resentment; do away the sore. For thou supposest
that thou art paying him back the injury; but thou art first tormenting thyself, and setting
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up thy rage as an executioner within thee in every part, and tearing up thine own bowels.
For what can be more wretched than a man perpetually angry? And just as maniacs, who
never enjoy tranquility, so also he who is resentful, and retains an enemy, will never have
the enjoyment of any peace; incessantly raging, as he does, and daily increasing the tempest
of his thoughts calling to mind his words and acts, and detesting the very name of him who
has aggrieved him. Do you but mention his enemy, he becomes furious at once, and sustains
much inward anguish; and should he chance to get only a bare sight of him, he fears and
trembles, as if encountering the worst evils. Yea, if he perceives any of his relations, if but
his garment, or his dwelling, or street, he is tormented by the sight of them. For as in the
1805 St. Chrys. seems to mean, that there is none so remarkably connected with promises of remission of sin,
as Matt. v. 7, vi. 14; Luke vi. 37.
1806 Jer. xv. 1.
1807 Jer. xv. 1.
1808 Zech. viii. 17, vii. 10, LXX.
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