1. [I recognised
your letter, as one recognises one’s friends’ children from
their obvious likeness to their parents. Your saying that to
describe the kind of place I live in, before letting you hear anything
about how I live, would not go far towards persuading you to share my
life, was just like you; it was worthy of a soul like yours, which
makes nothing of all that concerns this life here, in comparison with
the blessedness which is promised us hereafter. What I do myself,
day and night, in this remote spot, I am ashamed to write. I have
abandoned my life in town, as one sure to lead to countless ills; but I
have not yet been able to get quit of myself. I am like
travellers at sea, who have never gone a voyage before, and are
distressed and seasick, who quarrel with the ship because it is so big
and makes such a tossing, and, when they get out of it into the pinnace
or dingey, are everywhere and always seasick and distressed.
Wherever they go their nausea and misery go with them. My state
is something like this. I carry my own troubles with me, and so
everywhere I am in the midst of similar discomforts. So in the
end I have not got much good out of my solitude. What I ought to
have done; what would have enabled me to keep close to the footprints
of Him who has led the way to salvation—for He says, “If
any one will come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross,
and follow me”
Matt. xvi.
24.—is
this.]