19. And now, Almighty God, I first must pray Thee
to forgive my excess of indignation, and permit me to address Thee; and
next to grant me, dust and ashes as I am, yet bound in loyal devotion
to Thyself, freedom of utterance in this debate. There was a time
when I, poor wretch, was not; before my life and consciousness and
personality began to exist. It is to Thy mercy that I owe my
life; and I doubt not that Thou, in Thy goodness, didst give me my
birth for my good, for Thou, Who hast no need of me, wouldst never have
made the beginning of my life the beginning of evil. And then,
when Thou hadst breathed into me the breath of life and endowed me with
the power of thought, Thou didst instruct me in the knowledge of
Thyself, by means of the sacred volumes given us through Thy servants
Moses and the prophets. From them I learnt Thy revelation, that
we must not worship Thee as a lonely God. For their pages taught
me of God, not different from Thee in nature but One with Thee in
mysterious unity of substance. I learnt that Thou art God in God,
by no mingling or confusion but by Thy very nature, since the Divinity
which is Thyself dwells in Him Who is from Thee. But the true
doctrine of the perfect birth revealed that Thou, the Indwelt, and
Thou, the Indweller, are not One Person, yet that Thou dost dwell in
Him Who is from Thee. And the voices of Evangelists and Apostles
repeat the lesson, and the very words which fell from the holy mouth of
Thy Only-begotten are recorded, telling how Thy Son, God the
Only-begotten from Thee the Unbegotten God, was born of the Virgin as
man to fulfil the mystery of my salvation; how Thou dwellest in Him, by
virtue of His true generation from Thyself, and He in Thee, because of
the nature given in His abiding birth from Thee.