To Olympius. Ep.
CXLVI.
This is what I said as if by a sort of prophecy, when I
found you favourable to every request, and was making insatiable use of
your gentleness, that I fear I shall exhaust your kindness upon the
affairs of others. For see, a contest of my own has come (if that
is mine which concerns my own relations), and I cannot speak with the
same freedom. First, because it is my own. For to entreat
for myself, though it may be more useful, is more humiliating.
And next, I am afraid of excess as destroying pleasure, and opposing
all that is good. So matters stand, and I conjecture only too
rightly. Nevertheless with confidence in God before Whom I stand,
and in your magnanimity in doing good, I am bold to present this
petition.
Suppose Nicobulus to be the worst of men:—though
his only crime is that through me he is an object of envy, and more
free than he ought to be. And suppose that my present opponent is
the most just of men. For I am ashamed to accuse before Your
Uprightness one whom yesterday I was supporting: but I do not
know if it will seem to you just that punishment should be demanded for
one man’s crimes from another, though these were quite strange to
him, and had not even his consent; from the man who has so stirred his
household and been so upset as to have surrendered to his accuser more
readily than the latter wished. Must Nicobulus or his children be
reduced to slavery as his persecutors desire? I am ashamed both
of the ground of the persecution and of the time, if this is to be done
while both you are in power and I have influence with you. Not
so, most admirable friend, let not this be suggested to Your
Integrity. But recognizing by the winged swiftness of your mind
the malice from which this proceeds, and having respect to me your
admirer, shew yourself a merciful judge to those who are being
disturbed—for to-day you are not merely judging between man and
man, but between virtue and vice; and to this more consideration than
by an ordinary man must be given by those who are like you in virtue
and are skilful governors. And in return for this you shall have
from me not only the matter of my prayers, which I know you do not,
like so many men, despise; but also that I will make your government
famous with all to whom I am known.