Chapter 8.—How the Soul
Inquires into Itself. Whence Comes the Error of the Soul Concerning
Itself.
11. It is then a wonderful
question, in what manner the soul seeks and finds itself; at what
it aims in order to seek, or whither it comes, that it may come
into or find out. For what is so much in the mind as the mind
itself? But because it is
in
those things which it thinks of
with love, and is wont to be in sensible, that is, in corporeal
things with love, it is unable to be in itself without the images
of those corporeal things. And hence shameful error arises to block
its way, whilst it cannot separate from itself the images of
sensible things, so as to see itself alone. For they have
marvellously cohered with it by the close adhesion of love. And
herein consists its uncleanness; since, while it strives to think
of itself alone, it fancies itself to be that, without which it
cannot think of itself. When, therefore, it is bidden to become
acquainted with itself, let it not seek itself as though it were
withdrawn from itself; but let it withdraw that which it has added
to itself. For itself lies more deeply within, not only than those
sensible things, which are clearly without, but also than the
images of them; which are indeed in some part of the soul,
viz
., that which beasts also have, although these want
understanding, which is proper to the mind. As therefore the mind
is within, it goes forth in some sort from itself, when it exerts
the affection of love towards these, as it were, footprints of many
acts of attention. And these footprints are, as it were, imprinted
on the memory, at the time when the corporeal things which are
without are perceived in such way, that even when those corporeal
things are absent, yet the images of them are at hand to those who
think of them. Therefore let the mind become acquainted with
itself, and not seek itself as if it were absent; but fix upon
itself the act of [voluntary] attention, by which it was wandering
among other things, and let it think of itself. So it will see that
at no time did it ever not love itself, at no time did it ever not
know itself; but by loving another thing together with itself it
has confounded itself with it, and in some sense has grown one with
it. And so, while it embraces diverse things, as though they were
one, it has come to think those things to be one which are
diverse.