53. For in human affairs Thou hast set before us
many things of such a sort, that though we do not know their cause, yet
the effect is not unknown; and reverence inculcates faith, where
ignorance is inherent in our nature. Thus when I raised to Thy
heaven these feeble eyes of mine, my certainty regarding it was limited
to the fact that it is Thine. For seeing therein these orbits
where the stars are fixed, and their annual revolutions, and the
Pleiades and the Great Bear and the Morning Star, each having their
varied duties in the service which is appointed them, I recognise Thy
presence, O God, in these things whereof I cannot gain any clear
understanding. And when I view the marvellous swellings of Thy
sea, I know that I have failed to comprehend not merely the origin of
the waters but even the movements of this changeful expanse; yet I
grasp at faith in some reasonable cause, although it is one that I
cannot see, and fail not to recognise Thee in these things also, which
I do not know. Furthermore, when in thought I turn to the earth,
which by the power of hidden agencies causes to decay all the seeds
which it receives, quickens them when decayed, multiplies them when
quickened, and makes them strong when multiplied; in all these changes
I find nothing which my mind can understand, yet my ignorance helps
towards recognising Thee, for though I know nothing of the nature that
waits on me, I recognise Thee by actual experience of the advantages I
possess. Moreover, though I do not know myself, yet I perceive so
much that I marvel at Thee the more because I am ignorant of
myself. For without understanding it, I perceive a certain motion
or order or life in my mind when it exercises its powers; and this very
perception I owe to Thee, for though Thou deniest the power of
understanding my natural first beginning, yet Thou givest that of
perceiving nature with its charms. And since in what concerns
myself I recognise Thee, ignorant as I am, so recognising Thee I will
not in what concerns Thee cherish a feebler faith in Thy omnipotence,
because I do not understand. My thoughts shall not attempt to
grasp and master the origin of Thy Only-begotten Son, nor shall my
faculties strain to reach beyond the truth that He is my Creator and my
God.