20. What, then, shall I now do, since all
the sweetness, all the solace, in fine, all the charms of that life are
lost to me? For thou wast alone my solace at home, my charm
abroad; thou, I say, my adviser in counsel, the sharer in my cares, the
averter of anxiety, the driver away of sorrow; thou wast the protector
of my acts and the defender of my thoughts; thou, lastly, the only one
on whom rested care of home and of public matters. I call thy
holy soul to witness that, in the building of the church, Probably the
Basilica built at Milan by St. Ambrose. I often feared lest I might displease
thee. Lastly, when thou camest back thou didst chide thy
delay. So wast thou, at home and abroad, the instructor and
teacher of the priest, that thou didst not suffer him to think of
domestic matters, and didst take thought to care for public
matters. But I may not fear to seem to speak boastingly, for this
is thy meed of praise, that thou, without displeasing any, both didst
manage thy brother’s house and recommend his
priesthood.