Chapter VII.
That sometimes some laudably desire the office of
preaching, while others, as laudably, are drawn to it by
compulsion.
Although sometimes some laudably desire the office
of preaching, yet others are as laudably drawn to it by compulsion; as
we plainly perceive, if we consider the conduct of two prophets, one of
whom offered himself of his own accord to be sent to preach, yet the
other in fear refused to go. For Isaiah, when the
Lord
asked whom He should send, offered himself of his own
accord, saying,
Here I am; send me
(
Isai. vi. 8
). But Jeremiah is sent, yet
humbly pleads that he should not be sent, saying,
Ah,
Lord
God
! behold I cannot
speak: for I am a child
(
Jer. i. 6
). Lo, from these two men
different voices proceeded outwardly, but they flowed from the same
fountain of love. For there are two precepts of charity; the love
of
God
and of our neighbour. Wherefore
Isaiah, eager to profit his neighbours through an active life, desires
the office of preaching; but Jeremiah, longing to cleave sedulously to
the love of his Creator through a contemplative life, remonstrates
against being sent to preach. Thus what the one laudably desired
the other laudably shrunk from; the latter, lest by speaking he should
lose the gains of silent contemplation; the former, lest by keeping
silence he should suffer loss for lack of diligent work. But this
in both cases is to be nicely observed, that he who refused did not
persist in his refusal, and he who wished to be sent saw himself
previously cleansed by a coal of the altar; lest any one who has not
been purged should dare to approach sacred ministries, or any whom
supernal grace has chosen should proudly gainsay it under a show of
humility. Wherefore, since it is very difficult for any one to be
sure that he has been cleansed, it is safer to decline the office of
preaching, though (as we have said) it should not be declined
pertinaciously when the Supernal Will that it should be undertaken is
recognized. Both requirements Moses marvellously fulfilled, who
was unwilling to be set over so great a multitude, and yet
obeyed. For peradventure he were proud, were he to undertake
without trepidation the leadership of that innumerable people; and,
again, proud he would plainly be were he to refuse to obey his
Lord’s
command. Thus in both ways
humble, in both ways submissive, he was unwilling, as measuring
himself, to be set over the people; and yet, as presuming on the might
of Him who commanded him, he consented. Hence, then, hence let
all rash ones infer how great guilt is theirs, if they fear not to be
preferred to others by their own seeking, when holy men, even when
God
commanded, feared to undertake the
leadership of peoples. Moses trembles though
God
persuades him; and yet every weak one pants to assume
the burden of dignity; and one who can hardly bear his own load without
falling, gladly puts his shoulders under the pressure of others not his
own: his own deeds are too heavy for him to carry, and he
augments his burden.