If I call to mind your former empty mode of life,
when you were rolling in riches and had abundance of petty mundane
reputation, I shudder; then you were followed by a mob of flatterers,
and had the short enjoyment of luxury, with obvious peril and unfair
gain; on the one hand, fear of the magistrates scattered your care for
your salvation, on the other the agitations of public affairs disturbed
your home, and the continuance of troubles directed your mind to Him
Who is able to help you. Then, little by little, you took to
seeking for the Saviour, Who brings you fears for your good, Who
delivers you and protects you, though you mocked Him in your
security. Then you began to train yourself for a change to a
worthy life, treating all your perilous property as mere dung, and
abandoning the care of your household and the society of your
wife. All abroad like a stranger and a vagabond, wandering
through town and country, you betook yourself to Jerusalem.
cf. note on Letter xlii. p. 145.
Maran, Vit. S. Bas. cap. xii., regards this
implied sojourn at Jerusalem as unfavourable to the genuineness of
the letter; but supposing the letter to be genuine, and grounds to
exist for doubting Basil to have spent any long time in the Holy
Land, there seems no reason why “Jerusalem” may not be
taken in a figurative sense for the companionship of the
saints. See also Proleg. on Basil’s
baptism. There I myself lived with you, and,
for the toil of your ascetic discipline, called you blessed, when
fasting for weeks you continued in contemplation before God, shunning
the society of your fellows, like a routed runaway. Then you
arranged for yourself a quiet and solitary life, and refused all the
disquiets of society. You pricked your body with rough sackcloth;
you tightened a hard belt round your loins; you bravely put wearing
pressure on your bones; you made your sides hang loose from front to
back, and all hollow with fasting; you would wear no soft bandage, and
drawing in your stomach, like a gourd, made it adhere to the parts
about your kidneys. You emptied out all fat from your flesh; all
the channels below your belly you dried up; your belly itself you
folded up for want of food; your ribs, like the caves of a house, you
made to overshadow all the parts about your middle, and, with all your
body contracted, you spent the long hours of the night in pouring out
confession to God, and made your beard wet with channels of
tears. Why particularize? Remember how many mouths of
saints you saluted with a kiss, how many bodies you embraced, how many
held your hands as undefiled, how many servants God, as though in
worship, ran and clasped you by the knees.