Chapter XIV.
The answer on their remedies.
John
: For those who are anxious
for the cure of their ailments a saving remedy is sure not to be
wanting, and therefore remedies should be sought by the same means that
the signs of each fault are discovered. For as we have said that the
faults of men’s ordinary life are not wanting to solitaries, so
we do not deny that all zeal for virtue, and all the means of healing
are at the disposal of all those who are cut off from men’s
ordinary life. When then anyone discovers by those
signs which we described above, that he
is attacked by outbreaks of impatience or anger, he should always
practise himself in the opposite and contrary things, and by setting
before himself all sorts of injuries and wrongs, as if offered to him
by somebody else, accustom his mind to submit with perfect humility to
everything that wickedness can bring upon him; and by often
representing to himself all kinds of rough and intolerable things,
continually consider with all sorrow of heart with what gentleness he
ought to meet them. And, by thus looking at the sufferings of all the
saints, or indeed at those of the Lord Himself, he will admit that the
various reproaches as well as punishments are less than he deserves,
and prepare himself to endure all kinds of griefs. And when
occasionally he has been recalled by some invitation to the assembly of
the brethren—a thing which cannot but happen every now and then
even to the strictest inmates of the desert,—if he finds that his
mind is silently disturbed even for trifles, he should like some stern
censor of his secret emotions charge himself with all those various
hard wrongs, to the perfect endurance of which he was training himself
by his daily meditations, and blaming and chiding himself as follows,
say My good man, are you the fellow who while training yourself in the
practising ground of solitude, ventured most determinedly to think that
you would get the better of all bad qualities, and who just now, when
you were representing to yourself not only all sorts of bitter
reproaches, but also intolerable punishments, fancied that you were
pretty strong and able to stand against all storms? How is it that that
unconquered patience of yours is upset by the first trial even of a
light word? How is it that even a gentle breeze has shaken that house
of yours which you fancied was built so strongly on the solid rock?
Where is that which you announced when during a time of peace you were
in your foolish confidence longing for war? “I am ready, and am
not troubled;” and this which you used often to say with the
prophet: “Prove me, O Lord, and try me: search out my reins and
my heart;” and: “prove me, O Lord, and know my heart:
question me and know my paths; and see if there be any way of
wickedness in me.”
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How has a tiny
ghost of an enemy frightened your grand preparations for war? With such
reproaches and remorse a man should condemn himself and not allow the
sudden temptation which has upset him to go unpunished, but by
chastising his flesh with a severer penalty of fasting and vigils; and,
by punishing his sin of lightness of mind by continual pains of
self-restraint, he should while living in solitude consume in this fire
of practice what he ought to have thoroughly driven out in the life of
the Cœnobium. This at any rate we must firmly and resolutely hold
to in order to secure a lasting and unbroken patience; viz., that for
us, to whom by the Divine law not merely vengeance for, but even the
recollection of injuries is forbidden, it is not permissible to be
roused to anger because of some loss or annoyance. For what greater
injury can happen to the soul than for it, owing to some sudden
blindness from rage, to lose the brightness of the true and eternal
light and to fail of the sight of Him “Who is meek and lowly of
heart?”
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What I ask could
be more dangerous or awkward than for a man to lose his power of
judging of goodness, and his standard and rule of true discernment, and
for one in his sober senses to do what even a drunken man, and a fool
would not be pardoned for doing? One then who carefully considers these
and other injuries of the same kind, will readily endure and disregard
not only all kinds of losses, but also whatever wrongs and punishments
can be inflicted by the cruellest of men, as he will hold that there is
nothing more damaging than anger, nor more valuable than peace of mind
and unbroken purity of heart, for the sake of which we should think
nothing of the advantages not merely of carnal matters but also of
those things which appear to be spiritual, if they cannot be gained or
done without some disturbance of this tranquillity.
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Ps. cxviii. (cxix.) 60; xxv. (xxvi.) 2;
cxxxviii. (cxxxix.) 23, 24
.
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S.
Matt. xi. 29
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