Chapter XIX.
How even in the hour of prayer it is almost impossible
to avoid sin.
Whoever
then ascribes
sinlessness to human nature must fight against no idle words but the
witness and proof of his conscience which is on our side, and then only
should maintain that he is without sin, when he finds that he is not
torn away from this highest good: nay rather, whoever considering his
own conscience, to say no more, finds that he has celebrated even one
single service without the distraction of a single word or deed or
thought, may say that he is without sin. Further because we admit that
the discursive lightness of the human mind cannot get rid of these idle
and empty things, we thus consequently confess with truth that we are
not without sin. For with whatever care a man tries to keep his heart,
he can never, owing to the resistance of the nature of the flesh, keep
it according to the desire of his spirit. For however far the human
mind may have advanced and progressed towards a finer purity of
contemplation, so much the more will it see itself to be unclean, as it
were in the mirror of its purity, because while the soul raises itself
for a loftier vision and as it looks forth yearns for greater things
than it performs, it is sure always to despise as inferior and
worthless the things in which it is mixed up. Since a keener sight
notices more; and a blameless life produces greater sorrow when found
fault with; and amendment of life, and earnest striving after goodness
multiplies groans and sighs. For no one can rest content with that
stage to which he has advanced, and however much a man may be purified
in mind, so much the more does he see himself to be foul, and find
grounds for humiliation rather than for pride, and, however swiftly he
may climb to greater heights, so much more does he see above him
whither he is tending. Finally that chosen Apostle “whom Jesus
loved,”
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who lay on
His bosom, uttered this saying as if from the heart of the Lord:
“If we say that we have
no sin we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us.”
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And so if when we say that we have no sin,
we have not the truth, that is Christ, in us, what good do we do except
to prove ourselves by this very profession, criminals and wicked among
sinners?
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S.
John xiii. 23
.
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1 John i. 8
.