Chapter IV.—He Commits Theft with
His Companions, Not Urged on by Poverty, But from a Certain
Distaste of Well-Doing.
9. Theft is punished by Thy law, O Lord, and by the
law written in men’s hearts, which iniquity itself cannot blot
out. For what thief will suffer a thief? Even a rich thief will not
suffer him who is driven to it by want. Yet had I a desire to
commit robbery, and did so, compelled neither by hunger, nor
poverty through a distaste for well-doing, and a lustiness of
iniquity. For I pilfered that of which I had already sufficient,
and much better. Nor did I desire to enjoy what I pilfered, but the
theft and sin itself. There was a pear-tree close to our vineyard,
heavily laden with fruit, which was tempting neither for its colour
nor its flavour. To shake and rob this some of us wanton young
fellows went, late one night (having, according to our disgraceful
habit, prolonged our games in the streets until then), and carried
away great loads, not to eat ourselves, but to fling to the very
swine, having only eaten some of them; and to do this pleased us
all the more because it was not permitted. Behold my heart, O my
God; behold my heart, which Thou hadst pity upon when in the
bottomless pit. Behold, now, let my heart tell Thee what it was
seeking there, that I should be gratuitously wanton, having no
inducement to evil but the evil itself. It was foul, and I loved
it. I loved to perish. I loved my own error—not that for which I
erred, but the error itself. Base soul, falling from Thy firmament
to utter destruction—not seeking aught through the shame but the
shame itself!