HOMILY V.] HOMILIES ON TIMOTHY. 495
And although he is not a philosopher with re
spect to futurity ; yet he fears and trembles at
what may befall him here, lest he may have some
retribution in his property, his children, his
family, or his life. For many such visitations
(iod inflicts. For since the doctrine of the
Resurrection is not sufficient to bring all men to
reason, He affords even here many proofs of His
righteous judgment, and exhibits them to the
world. One who has gained wrongfully is with
out children, another falls in war, another is
maimed in his body, another loses his son. He
considers these things, on these his imagination
dwells, and he lives in continual fear.
Know you not what the unrighteous suffer ? Is
there no bitterness in these things? And were
there nothing of this sort, do not all condemn
him, and hate and abhor him, and think him less
rational than a beast, even those who are them
selves unrighteous ? For if they condemn them
selves, much more do they condemn another,
calling him rapacious, fraudulent, a pestilent fel
low. What pleasure then can he enjoy? He
has only the heavier care and anxiety to pre
serve his gains, and the being more anxious and
troubled. For the more wealth any one gets
about him, the more painful watchfulness does
he store up for himself. Then what are the
curses of those whom he has wronged, their
pleadings against him?
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And what, if sickness
should befall him? For it is impossible for one,
who has fallen into sickness, however atheistically
he may be inclined, not to be anxious about
these things, not to be thoughtful, when he is
unable to do anything. For as long as we are
here, the soul enjoying itself, does not tolerate
painful thoughts
: but when it is about to take
its flight from the body, then a greater fear con
strains it, as entering into the very portals of
judgment. Even robbers, whilst they are in
prison, live without fear, but when they are
brought to the very curtain of the court," they
sink with terror. For when the fear of death is
urgent, like a fire consuming all things besides,
it obliges the soul to philosophize, and to take
thought for futurity. The desire of wealth, the
love of gain, and of bodily pleasures, no longer
possesses it. These things passing away like
clouds, leave the judging faculty clear, and grief
entering in softens the hard heart. For nothing
is so opposite to philosophy, as a life of pleas
ure ; nor, on the other hand, is anything so
favorable to philosophy as affliction. Consider
what the covetous man will then be. For,
"
an
hour of affliction," it is said,
"
maketh a man
forget much pleasure." (Ecclus. ii. 27.) What
will then be his state, when he considers those
whom he has robbed, and injured, and de
frauded, when he sees others reaping the fruits
of his grasping, and himself going to pay the
penalty ? For it cannot, indeed it cannot be, that
when fallen into sickness he should not reflect
upon these things. For often the soul of itself
is distracted with agony and terror. What a
bitterness is this, tell me ! And-with every sick
ness these things must be endured. And what
will he not suffer when he sees others punished
or put to death ?
These things await him here. And as to what
he must undergo hereafter, it is not possible to
say what punishment, what vengeance, what tor
ments, what racks are reserved for him There.
These things we declare.
"
He that hath ears
to hear, let him hear." (Luke viii. 8.) We are
for ever discoursing of these things, not willingly,
but of necessity. For we could wish there were
no obligation to mention such things at all. But
since it must be, we would at least, by a little
medicine, deliver you from your disease, and re
store you to health. But whilst you remain in
this sickness, it would show a mean and weak
spirit, not to say cruelty and inhumanity, to de
sist from the healing treatment. For if when
physicians despair of our bodies, we beseech
them not to neglect us, not to cease to our last
breath applying whatever is in their power, shall
we notmuchmore exhort ourselves ? For perhaps
when we have come to the very gates of Hell,
the vestibule of wickedness itself, it may be pos
sible to recover, to renew our strength, to lay
hold on eternal life ! How many, who have
heard ten times and remained insensible, have
afterwards at one hearing been converted ! Or
rather, not at one hearing ; for though they
seemed insensible at the ten discourses, yet
they gained something, and afterwards showed
all at once abundant fruit. For as a tree may
receive ten strokes, and not fall ; then afterwards
be brought down all at once by a single blow :
yet it is not done by that one blow, but by the
ten which made that last successful. And this
is known to him who sees the root, though he
who takes his view of the trunk above knows it
not. So it is in this case. And thus often,
when physicians have applied many remedies,
no benefit is perceived ; but afterwards some
one comes in and effects an entire cure. Yet it
is not the work of him alone, but of these who
have already reduced the disorder. So that, if
now we do not bring forth the fruits of hearing
the word, yet hereafter we shall. For that we
shall bring them forth, I am fully persuaded.
For it is not, indeed it is not possible that such
eager desire, such a love of hearing, should fail
of its effect. God forbid ! But may we all,
having become worthy of the admonitions of
Christ, obtain the everlasting blessings, &c.