Chapter VIII.——Of the Nature
and the Amazing Power of Memory.
12. I will soar, then, beyond this power of my
nature also, ascending by degrees unto Him who made me. And I enter
the fields and roomy chambers of memory, where are the treasures of
countless images, imported into it from all manner of things by the
senses. There is treasured up whatsoever likewise we think, either
by enlarging or diminishing, or by varying in any way whatever
those things which the sense hath arrived at; yea, and whatever
else hath been entrusted to it and stored up, which oblivion hath
not yet engulfed and buried. When I am in this storehouse, I demand
that what I wish should be brought forth, and some things
immediately appear; others require to be longer sought after, and
are dragged, as it were, out of some hidden receptacle; others,
again, hurry forth in crowds, and while another thing is sought and
inquired for, they leap into view, as if to say, “Is it not we,
perchance?” These I drive away with the hand of my heart from
before the face of my remembrance, until what I wish be discovered
making its appearance out of its secret cell. Other things suggest
themselves without effort, and in continuous order, just as they
are called for,—those in front giving place to those that follow,
and in giving place are treasured up again to be forthcoming when I
wish it. All of which takes place when I repeat a thing from
memory.
13. All these things, each of which entered by its
own avenue, are distinctly and under general heads there laid up:
as, for example, light, and all colours and forms of bodies, by the
eyes; sounds of all kinds by the ears; all smells by the passage of
the nostrils; all flavours by that of the mouth; and by the
sensation of the whole body is brought in what is hard or soft, hot
or cold, smooth or rough, heavy or light, whether external or
internal to the body. All these doth that great receptacle of
memory, with its many and indescribable departments, receive, to be
recalled and brought forth when required; each, entering by its own
door, is hid up in it. And yet the things themselves do not enter
it, but only the images of the things perceived are there ready at
hand for thought to recall. And who can tell how these images are
formed, notwithstanding that it is evident by which of the senses
each has been fetched in and treasured up? For even while I live in
darkness and silence, I can bring out colours in memory if I wish,
and discern between black and white, and what others I wish; nor
yet do sounds break in and disturb what is drawn in by mine eyes,
and which I am considering, seeing that they also are there, and
are concealed, laid up, as it were, apart. For these too I can
summon if I please, and immediately they appear. And though my
tongue be at rest, and my throat silent, yet can I sing as much as
I will; and those images of colours, which not
withstanding are there, do
not interpose themselves and interrupt when another treasure is
under consideration which flowed in through the ears. So the
remaining things carried in and heaped up by the other senses, I
recall at my pleasure. And I discern the scent of lilies from that
of violets while smelling nothing; and I prefer honey to
grape-syrup, a smooth thing to a rough, though then I neither taste
nor handle, but only remember.
14. These things do I within, in that vast chamber
of my memory. For there are nigh me heaven, earth, sea, and
whatever I can think upon in them, besides those which I have
forgotten. There also do I meet with myself, and recall
myself,—what, when, or where I did a thing, and how I was
affected when I did it. There are all which I remember, either by
personal experience or on the faith of others. Out of the same
supply do I myself with the past construct now this, now that
likeness of things, which either I have experienced, or, from
having experienced, have believed; and thence again future actions,
events, and hopes, and upon all these again do I meditate as if
they were present. “I will do this or that,” say I to myself in
that vast womb of my mind, filled with the images of things so many
and so great, “and this or that shall follow upon it.” “Oh
that this or that might come to pass!” “God avert this or
that!” Thus speak I to myself; and when I speak, the images of
all I speak about are present, out of the same treasury of memory;
nor could I say anything at all about them were the images
absent.
15. Great is this power of memory, exceeding great,
O my God,—an inner chamber large and boundless! Who has plumbed
the depths thereof? Yet it is a power of mine, and appertains unto
my nature; nor do I myself grasp all that I am. Therefore is the
mind too narrow to contain itself. And where should that be which
it doth not contain of itself? Is it outside and not in itself? How
is it, then, that it doth not grasp itself? A great admiration
rises upon me; astonishment seizes me. And men go forth to wonder
at the heights of mountains, the huge waves of the sea, the broad
flow of the rivers, the extent of the ocean, and the courses of the
stars, and omit to wonder at themselves; nor do they marvel that
when I spoke of all these things, I was not looking on them with my
eyes, and yet could not speak of them unless those mountains, and
waves, and rivers, and stars which I saw, and that ocean which I
believe in, I saw inwardly in my memory, and with the same vast
spaces between as when I saw them abroad. But I did not by seeing
appropriate them when I looked on them with my eyes; nor are the
things themselves with me, but their images. And I knew by what
corporeal sense each made impression on me.