Chapter XXXII.
Of the letters which were burnt without being read.
Nor
do I think it less needful
to relate this act of a brother who was intent on purity of heart, and
extremely anxious with regard to the contemplation of things divine.
When after an interval of fifteen years a large number of letters had
been brought to him from his father and mother and many friends in the
province of Pontus, he received the huge packet of letters, and turning
over the matter in his own mind for some time, “What
thoughts,” said he, “will the reading of these suggest to
me, which will incite me either to senseless joy or to useless sadness!
for how many days will they draw off the attention of my heart from the
contemplation I have set before me, by the recollection of those who
wrote them! How long will it take for the disturbance of mind thus
created to be calmed, and what an
effort will it cost for that former state of
peacefulness to be restored, if the mind is once moved by the sympathy
of the letters, and by recalling the words and looks of those whom it
has left for so long begins once more in thought and spirit to revisit
them, to dwell among them and to be with them. And it will be of no use
to have forsaken them in the body, if one begins to look on them with
the heart, and readmits and revives that memory which on renouncing
this world every one gave up, as if he were dead.” Turning this
over in his mind, he determined not only not to read a single letter,
but not even to open the packet, for fear lest, at the sight of the
names of the writers, or on recalling their appearance, the purpose of
his spirit might give way. And so he threw it into the fire to be
burnt, all tied up just as he had received it, crying, “Away, O
ye thoughts of my home, be ye burnt up, and try no further to recall me
to those things from which I have fled.”