the woman: “For seest thou,” saith He, “this woman? I entered into thine house, thou gavest
me no water for my feet; but she hath washed my feet with her tears, and wiped them with
the hairs of her head. Thou gavest me no kiss, but she since the time I came in hath not
ceased to kiss my feet. Mine head with oil thou didst not anoint; but she hath anointed my
feet with ointment. Wherefore I say unto thee: her sins which are many are forgiven; for
she loved much; but to whom little is forgiven, the same loveth little. And He said unto her,
thy sins are forgiven.”291
16. For this reason also the devil, knowing that they who have committed great evils,
when they have begun to repent, do this with much zeal, inasmuch as they are conscious of
their offences, fears and trembles lest they should make a beginning of the work; for after
they have made it they are no longer capable of being checked, and, kindling like fire under
the influence of repentance, they render their souls purer than pure gold, being impelled
by their conscience, and the memory of their former sins, as by some strong gale, towards
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the haven of virtue. And this is the point in which they have an advantage over those who
have never fallen, that they exercise more vehement energy; if only, as I said, they can lay
hold of the beginning. For the task which is hard and difficult of accomplishment is to be
able to set foot on the entrance, and to reach the vestibule of repentance, and to repulse and
overthrow the enemy there when he is fiercely raging and assaulting us. But after this, he
will not display so much fury when he has once been worsted, and has fallen where he was
strong, and we shall receive greater energy, and shall run this good race with much ease. Let
us then in future set about our return, let us hasten up to the city which is in Heaven, in
which we have been enrolled, in which also we have been appointed to find our home as
citizens. For to despair of ourselves not only has this evil that it shuts the gates of that city
against us, and that it drives us into greater indolence and contempt, but also that it plunges
us into Satanic recklessness. For the only cause why the devil became such as he is was that
he first of all despaired, and afterwards from despair sank into recklessness. For the soul,
when once it has abandoned its own salvation, will no longer perceive that it is plunging
downwards, choosing to do and say everything which is adverse to its own salvation. And
just as madmen, when once they have fallen out of a sound condition, are neither afraid nor
ashamed of anything, but fearlessly dare all manner of things, even if they have to fall into
fire, or deep water, or down a precipice; so they who have been seized by the frenzy of despair
are hence forward unmanageable, rushing into vice in every direction, and if death does not
come to put a stop to this madness, and vehemence, they do themselves infinite mischief.
Therefore I entreat you, before you are deeply steeped in this drunkenness, recover your
senses and rouse yourself up, and shake off this Satanic fit, doing it gently and gradually if
it be not possible to effect it all at once. For to me indeed the easier course seems to be to
291 Luke vii. 44–48.
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