Chapter III.—Not Even When at
Church Does He Suppress His Desires. In the School of Rhetoric He
Abhors the Acts of the Subverters.
5. And Thy faithful mercy hovered over me afar. Upon
what unseemly iniquities did I wear myself out, following a
sacrilegious curiosity, that, having deserted Thee, it might drag
me into the treacherous abyss, and to the beguiling obedience of
devils, unto whom I immolated my wicked deeds, and in all which
Thou didst scourge me! I dared, even while Thy solemn rites were
being celebrated within the walls of Thy church, to desire, and to
plan a business sufficient to procure me the fruits of death; for
which Thou chastisedst me with grievous punishments, but nothing in
comparison with my fault, O Thou my greatest mercy, my God, my
refuge from those terrible hurts, among which I wandered with
presumptuous neck, receding farther from Thee, loving my own ways,
and not Thine—loving a vagrant liberty.
6. Those studies, also, which were accounted
honourable, were directed towards the courts of law; to excel in
which, the more crafty I was, the more I should be praised. Such is
the blindness of men, that they even glory in their blindness. And
now I was head in the School of Rhetoric, whereat I rejoiced
proudly, and became inflated with arrogance, though more sedate, O
Lord, as Thou knowest, and altogether removed from the subvertings
of those “subverters”
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(for this stupid and diabolical
name was held to be the very brand of gallantry) amongst whom I
lived, with an impudent shamefacedness that I was not even as they
were. And with them I was, and at times I was delighted with their
friendship whose acts I ever abhorred, that is, their
“subverting,” wherewith they insolently attacked the modesty of
strangers, which they disturbed by uncalled for jeers, gratifying
thereby their mischievous mirth. Nothing can more nearly resemble
the actions of devils than these. By what name, therefore, could
they be more truly called than “subverters”?—being themselves
subverted first, and altogether perverted—being secretly mocked
at and seduced by the deceiving spirits, in what they themselves
delight to jeer at and deceive others.
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Eversores.
“These for their boldness were
like our ‘Roarers,’ and for their jeering like the worser sort
of those that would be called ‘The Wits.’”—W. W. “This
appears to have been a name which a pestilent and savage set of
persons gave themselves, licentious alike in speech and action.
Augustin names them again,
De Vera Relig
. c. 40; Ep. 185
ad Bonifac
. c. 4; and below, v. c. 12; whence they seemed to
have consisted mainly of Carthaginian students, whose savage life
is mentioned again,
ib
. c. 8.”—E. B. P.