Chapter XI.—His Mother, Attacked
by Fever, Dies at Ostia.
27. What reply I made unto her to these things I do
not well remember. However, scarcely five days after, or not much
more, she was prostrated by fever; and while she was sick, she one
day sank into a swoon, and was for a short time unconscious of
visible things. We hurried up to her; but she soon regained her
senses, and gazing on me and my brother as we stood by her, she
said to us inquiringly, “Where was I?” Then looking intently at
us stupefied with grief, “Here,” saith she, “shall you bury
your mother.” I was silent, and refrained from weeping; but my
brother said something, wishing her, as the happier lot, to die in
her own country and not abroad. She, when she heard this, with
anxious countenance arrested him with her eye, as savouring of such
things, and then gazing at me, “Behold,” saith she, “what he
saith;” and soon after to us both she saith, “Lay this body
anywhere, let not the care for it trouble you at all. This only I
ask, that you will remember me at the Lord’s altar, wherever you
be.” And when she had given forth this opinion in such words as
she could, she was silent, being in pain with her increasing
sickness.
28. But, as I reflected on Thy gifts, O thou
invisible God, which Thou instillest into the hearts of Thy
faithful ones, whence such marvellous fruits do spring, I did
rejoice and give thanks unto Thee, calling to mind what I knew
before, how she had ever burned with anxiety respecting her
burial-place, which she had provided and prepared for herself by
the body of her husband. For as they had lived very peacefully
together, her desire had also been (so little is the human mind
capable of grasping things divine) that this should be added to
that happiness, and be talked of among men, that after her
wandering beyond the sea, it had been granted her that they both,
so united on earth, should lie in the same grave. But when this
uselessness had, through the bounty of Thy goodness, begun to be no
longer in her heart, I knew not, and I was full of joy admiring
what she had thus disclosed to me; though indeed in that our
conversation in the window also, when she said, “What do I here
any longer?” she appeared not to desire to die in her own
country. I heard afterwards, too, that at the time we were at
Ostia, with a maternal confidence she one day, when I was absent,
was speaking with certain of my friends on the contemning of this
life, and the blessing of death; and when they—amazed at the
courage which Thou hadst given to her, a woman—asked her whether
she did not dread leaving her body at such a distance from her own
city, she replied, “Nothing is far to God; nor need I fear lest
He should be ignorant at the end of the world of the place whence
He is to raise me up.” On the ninth day, then, of her sickness,
the fifty-sixth year of her age, and the thirty-third of mine, was
that religious and devout soul set free from the body.