Chapter 9.—Augustin Deceived by Familiarity with the Manichæans, and by the Suc-
cession of Victories Over Ignorant Christians Reported by Them. The Manichæans are
Likewise Easily Refuted from the Knowledge of Sin and the Will.
But two things especially, which easily lay hold upon that unwary age, urged me through
wonderful circuits. One of these was familiarity, suddenly, by a certain false semblance of
goodness, wrapped many times around my neck as a certain sinuous chain. The other was,
that I was almost always noxiously victorious in arguing with ignorant Christians who yet
eagerly attempted, each as he could, to defend their faith.209 By which frequent success the
ardor of youth was kindled, and by its own impulse rashly verged upon the great evil of
stubbornness. For this kind of wrangling, after I had become an auditor among them,
whatever I was able to do either by my own genius, such as it was, or by reading the works
of others, I most gladly devoted to them alone. Accordingly from their speeches ardor in
disputations was daily increased, from success in disputations love for them [the
Manichæans]. Whence it resulted that whatever they said, as if affected by certain strange
disorders, I approved of as true, not because I knew it to be true, but because I wished it to
be. So it came about that, however slowly and cautiously, yet for a long time I followed men
that preferred a sleek straw to a living soul.
12. So be it, I was not able at that time to distinguish and discern sensible from intelligible
things, carnal forsooth from spiritual. It did not belong to age, nor to discipline, nor even
to any habit, nor, finally, to any deserts; for it is a matter of no small joy and felicitation:
had I not thus been able at length even to grasp that which in the judgment of all men nature
itself by the laws of the most High God has established?
209 Nothing is more certain than that Christianity has suffered more at the hands of injudicious and ignorant
defenders than from its most astute and determined foes. Little attention would be paid to the blatant infidels
of the present day were it not for the interest aroused and sustained by weak attempts to refute their arguments.
And as the youthful, ardent Augustin was encouraged and confirmed in his errors by the inability of his opponents,
so are errors confirmed at the present day. The philosophical defence of Christianity is a matter of the utmost
delicacy, and should be undertaken with fear and trembling.—A.H.N.
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