Chapter II.
A description of accidie, and the way in which it creeps
over the heart of a monk, and the injury it inflicts on the soul.
And
when this has taken
possession of some unhappy soul, it produces dislike of the place,
disgust with the cell, and disdain and contempt of the brethren who
dwell with him or at a little distance, as if they were careless or
unspiritual. It also makes the man lazy and sluggish about all manner
of work which has to be done within the enclosure of his dormitory. It
does not suffer him to stay in his cell, or to take any pains about
reading, and he often groans because he can do no good while he stays
there, and complains and sighs because he can bear no spiritual fruit
so long as he is joined to that society; and he complains that he is
cut off from spiritual gain, and is of no use in the place, as if he
were one who, though he could govern others and be useful to a great
number of people, yet was edifying none, nor profiting any one by his
teaching and doctrine. He cries up distant monasteries and those which
are a long way off, and describes such places as more profitable and
better suited for salvation; and besides this he paints the intercourse
with the brethren there as sweet and full of spiritual life. On the
other hand, he says that everything about him is rough, and not only
that there is nothing edifying among the brethren who are stopping
there, but also that even food for the body cannot be procured without
great difficulty. Lastly he fancies that he will never be well while he
stays in that place, unless he leaves his cell (in which he is sure to
die if he stops in it any longer) and takes himself off from thence as
quickly as possible. Then the fifth or sixth hour brings him such
bodily weariness and longing for food that he seems to himself worn out
and wearied as if with a long journey, or some very heavy work, or as
if he had put off taking food during a fast of two or three days. Then
besides this he looks about anxiously this way and that, and sighs that
none of the brethren come to see him, and often goes in and out of his
cell, and frequently gazes up at the sun, as if it was too slow in
setting, and so a kind of unreasonable confusion of mind takes
possession of him like some foul darkness,
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and
makes him idle and useless for every spiritual work, so that he
imagines that no cure for so terrible an attack can be found in
anything except visiting some one of the brethren, or in the solace of
sleep alone. Then the disease suggests that he ought to show courteous
and friendly hospitalities to the brethren, and pay visits to the sick,
whether near at hand or far off. He talks too about some dutiful and
religious offices; that those kinsfolk ought to be inquired after, and
that he ought to go and see them oftener; that it would be a real work
of piety to go more frequently to visit that religious woman, devoted
to the service of God, who is deprived of all support of kindred; and
that it would be a most excellent thing to get what is needful for her
who is neglected and despised by her own kinsfolk; and that he ought
piously to devote his time to these things instead of staying uselessly
and with no profit in his cell.
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Velut tætra
suppletur caligine
(Petschenig); the text of Gazæus reads
terra
for
tætra
.